The desktop of my computer is pure and clean, a blank slate of white, with only 2 simple letters:

be.

The creature of change and newness that I am, it’s strange that it’s been like that for so long. And the settling effect it still has on me guarantees it’s spot as the mantra of my computer-universe for some time to come. But I still can’t seem to grasp that concept. So abstract and yet so practical, the weight and importance of such a tiny word continues to smack me in the face daily.

My name is Lauren, and well, I’m a DOer. a GOer. a FIXer. a SERVEr. a THINKer. a FIGHTer. a MOVEr {and yes, a SHAKEr}. a STRIVEr. a PLANner. a LOVEr. a WORSHIPer. a WORKer. a STUDIer. a GETter.

And normally, that wouldn’t be a big deal. All of those things I just declared are not bad. In fact, most of them have come quite in handy on more than one occasion in my life. They’ve probably helped me get somewhere I wanted to go or achieve some new accomplishment I sought after.

There’s something you need to know about me though. I love Jesus. Oh gosh, do I love Jesus. And I have been ravished and pursued by a God that I am so unworthy to even be thought of by. But the crazy thing is that not only does He think of me, but He wants me. ME. All of me. And now the one thing I want more than anything else in the entire universe is Him.

So unlike before, what I want now is not obtainable by DOing. In fact, the GOing pulls me farther away with every action and reach of my arm. Somehow I seem to discover new facets of Him when I stop seeking answers to my endless questions of who He is. Someway I actually accomplish more for the Kingdom when I stop and rest than if I constantly go-go-go. And somehow I think I look more like Jesus when I drop-kick my “A good Christian is…..”-list out the window. Because it’s when I stop and just be with Him, that I know more of who He is and who He created me to be.

So this is my journey, my lifestyle, my adventure in simply BEing more of who I am so I can BE more of who He is.